“I have also been working on motives (Process 2). Have a
look at this.”
I showed her the products of my analysis of motives based on
the conversations I had conducted with everyone as part of Process 1.
Name
|
Motives
|
Other factors
|
Lord Todd
|
None identified so far.
|
Doesn’t care about his staff. Has as little to do with
them as possible.
|
Arthur Court
|
None identified so far.
|
Not well liked by other staff, but not hated.
|
Brian Bates
|
Lost c£1,500 to Arthur playing cards.
Disliked Arthur.
|
Ex-army. Knows how to fight and has experience of it.
|
Connor Chambers
|
Lost c£2,000 to Arthur playing cards.
|
Ex-army. Knows how to fight and has experience of it.
|
Danny D’Eath
|
Wants a relationship with Erica…Arthur knew about this and
could have told Lord Todd. It is against the rules of employment for staff to
have romantic relationships. Arthur had never said or hinted he would though.
May have known (from Erica) that Arthur may have liked
Erica as well.
|
Ex-army. Knows how to fight and has experience of it.
|
Erica Echoes
|
Wants a relationship with Danny…Arthur knew about this
(see Danny).
Erica thinks that Arthur liked her as well.
|
Erica knew that Arthur was sneaking out some evenings
(breaking his employment contract). Hasn’t told anyone including Danny.
|
Frank Flowers
|
Grows and sells fruit and veg on Lord Todd’s land but
sells some for personal profit. Arthur knew and could have told Lord Todd and
threatened to.
Arthur teased Frank about his employment position (Arthur
thought Frank has the lowest status job of the employees).
Arthur had “landed” Frank in trouble a couple of times
with Lord Todd.
|
|
Gareth Garfield
|
None identified so far.
|
Kept from Lord Todd that he has a spent conviction for
mugging (15 years ago). Unknown if Arthur knew but could have done…
|
“You’ve left a motive out,” said Ms D.
“Have I?”
“Yes: Lord Todd is – to an extent – paranoid…I should
know…TripleA gets good business from Lord Todd because of it.”
“Fair enough. Could go under 'other factors' I suppose….”
“No: the fact that he is paranoid means his reasoning will
be suspect and that leads to possible motive, doesn’t it? And, even if he is
not paranoid but has good reason for such tight security, well…he has not told
you about that, and that in itself is worrying from a motives perspective.”
Wham! She had me there, She was right, no doubt of that. Now
that she had said it I could see that I had been suppressing it: you don’t
really want to include in your deliverables documents information that could be
taken the wrong way by the very person who is paying your invoice. “Could be
taken the wrong way”? Who am I kidding? Lord Todd would go stratospheric if he
read that in my analysis.
I was (to coin a phrase) caught between a rock and a hard
place…Rock: Ms D’s reasoning was correct – Lord Todd was paranoid (or under
real threat of some sort he was keeping to himself) and so could have a motive.
Hard place: putting it in the report would result in at the very least an “interesting” chat with Lord Todd.
So I had two problems – Ms D had definitely found a
legitimate flaw in my analysis and what do you do when the products of your
analysis may be unpalatable to your employer?
Strangely they are 2 sides of the same coin: ego. I was
embarrassed that Ms D had “caught me out” and I was worried that Lord Todd
would be angry with me. Both of these relied on my feelings, feelings that
damaged my ego.
If I was more concerned with finding out the truth rather
than looking good, the fact that Ms D had “caught me out” would not be relevant
and I would not be bothered. Indeed, I would be grateful that the flaw had been
exposed and so could be fixed: Ms D had done me a favour!
If I was more concerned with finding out the truth rather
than looking good, the fact Lord Todd might
be angry with me (his decision of course) would not be relevant. It literally
would not matter to me.
Ideally all analysis is ego-less, but I am human and we
humans are ego-full creatures (therefore I am ego-full!). Maybe I can’t change that
but I can acknowledge it and deal with it when it arises.
“That’s true,” I said. “and I will add that motive to Lord
Todd’s entry. Thank-you.”
Yeah, well, acknowledging my ego and dealing with it
rationally doesn’t mean I don’t feel stupid sometimes and – thinking of my next
review meeting Lord Todd – scared at others.